Have Mercy!

I just don't understand! How could I have done what I have done?! Like when Cain killed his brother Goliath I feel so guilty! I feel the eyes of God upon me, and He reins down his anger! Oh God forgive me! Night after night I shake with cold sweats, reminded of what I have done, of what I can never be forgiven for. Even now, as i stay here on my knees trying to pray I know that God has turned his back on me. I am one of the worst possible sinners! I have destroyed what God himself had created! Nothing can save my soul now. It is as black as tar because of my sins. I have heard that the sins of a father always haunts his family, even after his death so it's a good thing that I have no true family. But my kingdom! Oh if i were to have one request it would be that my kingdom be run by a man who is better than me. A person who will lead my kingdom to a better place for I already know that a king with a soul as dark as mine cannot lead a kingdom into prosperity. God has left me to rot in my own destruction, and there is no way I can be forgiven. Even the simplest hymn now burns my tongue.   My unholy mouth cannot speak the virtuous words anymore. I don't even try to cry out to God for forgiveness because I know my sins are unforgivable. I cannot bear to live with the knowledge that I have broken one of God's sacred laws. Now I am on my knees, but no prayer escapes my lips. Tonight will be a lonely one devoid of sleep. Sleep cannot come to one with such a heavy conscience.

Vacation!

So I've been thinking a lot about England lately. It's nice this time of year right? Because Hamlet is really messing with my leadership. There's a lot on my mind with the Norway situation, and I'll be honest and say I don't trust him. This will just be a little vacation, it's not like he's never coming back. You know what? I'm even going to send his friends, Guildenstern, and Rosencrantz with him. Those boys are going to be 'protecting' Hamlet. Ha Ha. You know what if Hamlet had followed my orders like they do then I'm sure I wouldn't be going to these drastic measures. He acts crazy one minute then tries to act all holier than thou the next, but he isn't fooling anyone. We all know that although Hamlet feels he's a hero, ridding the kingdom of all its bad men, but he's a slave to his emotions. Now I'm sending him on a little trip. I'm such a good father.

The breakup

Ouch. Hamlet just broke it off with Ophelia and i gotta say he was pretty mean. I mean "get thee to a nunnery"?  that was a little too over the top. I don't know where he gets this sort of ruthlessness, but I'm thinking it's from Gertrude. You guys don't know. You may think she's nice, but she's got a mean streak. Just like her son, and my brother. This family will be the death of me. All the stress they've given me, and one of them's dead! Anyway I knew Hamlet wasn't in love with the girl from the beginning. He's not the type to fall in love. It's just now that idiot Polonius knows. Ha! I wonder how the poor man's taking it. He's probably off crying somewhere. Why is he my adviser?

THIS PLAY!

 I thought today was going to be a good day. Hamlet wasn't acting crazy, and Polonius didn't talk to me, but this dumb play!! Who made this crap?! I seriously want to know who this was. (Do they know???) ( They can't know can they?) That actor who played the king was so slow to die! I'm just saying I heard that poison through the ear was supposed to be quick. And that Queen?? When she said-

     "A second time I kill my husband dead, when second husband kisses me in bed."

   WTF?!?! Who says that?! What if your second husband is better than the first one? Did she ever think about that?! It's not like anyone was even watching that stupid play. Hamlet was too busy trying to put his head in Ophelia's lap. Meanwhile where was Polonius?! Dude get your daughter! So I have a crazy son, and an idiot adviser. This is great, just great. Oh and uh just to clarify when i asked do they know, I was talking about something completely innocent. I'm not a bad guy you know. I'M NOT A BAD GUY!!!!!!!!!!